1. |
DEAD
03:23
|
|||
Welcome to the pharmacy, we got just what you need
To mix all of your frustrations with a bit of irony
I’ll put on my sarcastic smile and show you how I bleed
I’ll make you forget what you think you know about me
You’re upset again?
Well, you’re not alone
I’ve got the Devil on my side, so I have demons of my own
And you will never understand what it’s like to miss home
But maybe you could if you would just pick up the phone
There was a time when you’d give me your word and
I could count on you to follow through, ‘cause I deserve it
If you are the endgame and I am the start, then
I actually hope that somewhere in between I fall apart
Call me a loser and that’s exactly what I’ll be
‘Cause I lose everything, from your interest to my keys
Call me a loser and that’s exactly what I’ll be
Hold on, I’d like to propose a toast
To broken promises and broken bones
Hiding in your closet under piles of clothes
Yeah, but everybody knows
I’m a disaster. Hang me from the rafters.
Maybe then I’ll finally get: “Happy Ever After”
Write my epitaph on the headboard of my bed
And hopefully tomorrow morning, I’ll wake up DEAD
[Is this what you wanted?]
Call me a liar and that’s exactly what I’ll be
I’ll lie with DEATH if just to make you fucking scared of me
Call me a liar and that’s exactly what I’ll be
Growing up, I was afraid of the world
And you were the one who always wanted more
But while I had monsters under my bed
You’ve always had them in yours
I guess I wished that I was your monster
I guess I’ve just always been your ghost
So why am I the one feeling haunted by you?
Is this what you wanted?
|
||||
2. |
Blackmail
03:46
|
|||
Pick me apart by the start of the week and
I'm staying in for the weekend
'Cause you're stepping outta line
I'm feeling tired and weakened
But for now, this empty bed feels fine
It's like on your command, I'll make myself a mess
With a snap of your fingers, I'm snapping my neck
In the hopes it'll render me DEAD or upset
But the joke's on you, 'cause
You're a terrible detective
You don't have a clue
Revenge is the only thing that's sweeter than you.
So I hope you're bulletproof
'Cause i'm taking shots at you
My scars all tell stories about you
And you'll write another chapter when I see you again
You're just a liar who just craves to be admired, but you know:
I've got dirt on you
And I'm just a writer who's just super uninspired, but you know:
I'll still destroy you
So constantly dress yourself in grayscale, just to see how I feel
This is me, cutting myself wide open
And you should be cautious, acknowledge your mess
Because an angry boy's conscience is silent at best
You found your way to my head from my chest
I didn't invite you in, but since you're here, please excuse the mess
So tell me, so tell me
In what key does your heart beat?
And I'll try to harmonize
When these words beat you down.
If you're the DEATH of me, then I DIED at sixteen.
If you're the DEATH of me, then I DIED at sixteen.
|
||||
3. |
July
03:48
|
|||
There's a thousand different ways to live
But not a single motherfucking reason to exist
That's the American dream.
That's the American disease.
'Cause you believed everything they told you
You bought all the shit they sold you
About success and happiness
But now the stress and emptiness
Encapsulates the way you think
The way you dress
The way you sleep
The way you just want all of this bullshit to end
'Cause it's all just a scam
But it's all that I am now
I'm just waiting 'till it's all over
'Cause if you ask me, being happy's overrated
You found me DEAD in a parking lot
In a nightmare I had last month
Man, it seems like my subconscious
Is dreading going back to all of this
Why am awake?
It's 3 A.M.
These kids are still dancing to shit EDM
I don't fit in here
I shouldn't have come here
I hope my mother forgives me
I just broke down in a fucking bathroom at Wendy's™
And frantically called her, and told her: "I'm sorry"
I guess this semester just got the best of me
You thought you came here to learn
You came here to DIE
You thought you came here to learn
You came here...
Last Fall, I watched as all the leaves DIED
And I think I DIED a little too
'Cause you know I feel most alive in June and July
And, yes, I really still blame New York for making me this way
And I know I'll be okay for now
I just need a way out.
|
||||
4. |
Autumn Bloom
02:47
|
|||
You know that you could make Autumn bloom
I hate to admit it, I'm falling for you
And there's a million reasons I should leave your room
But I'm DYING to lie next to you
I'm trying to forget everything that you said
Please don't tell me you love me, it'll go to my head
And the letter you wrote me, I've read and re-read
And I know that he's better for you instead
You know that you could make Autumn bloom
I hate to admit it, I'm falling for you
And there's a million reasons I should leave your room
But I'm DYING to lie next to you
'Cause your bed is a casket for two
Maybe I'm a bitter soul
Maybe I'm just cynical
But this whole situation's so god damn typical
You pulled my walls apart
You spun the cobwebs on my heart
Took my affection for your collection
Took my affection for your collection
And your letter, I've re-read
And I know he's better
For you
'Cause your bed is a casket for two
|
||||
5. |
||||
It's like a midlife crisis already has it in for me
I guess all this means is I'll be DEAD by 40
I get so caught up in the future that the present's just a blur
I get so caught up in these anecdotes because I am obsessed with words
And failure seems to scare me more than DEATH
But hey, I think I've got at least a solid fifty bucks to my name
So, clearly I'm okay.
Yeah, clearly I'm okay.
I hate the way that I behave when I'm feeling so worn out
Like I've got one foot in the grave and the other in my mouth
Is it just me, or does it seem like
The world has a hit-list and no one survives?
Am I in its crosshairs?
I've put in my time.
The nihilist in me is closing his eyes
If the world went up in flames tonight
Maybe then it could finally shed some light on
The questions eating me alive like:
Are my parents proud?
I hate the way that I behave when I'm feeling so worn out
Like I've got one foot in the grave and the other in my mouth
Because contradictions are what I do well
I'm a narcissist who hates himself
I'm the king of ego in this town
Who's plagued with crippling self-doubt
But I'm okay... for now.
I said I'm okay... for now.
The world has made me feel so small
And I'm sure that you can tell this doesn't bother me at all
She said, "Are you even sorry?
Are you out for blood or glory?
What's your story, boy?"
Is it too much to ask for both?
Blood or glory?
Is it too much to ask for both?
|
||||
6. |
You Look Like Hell
03:56
|
|||
Are you having fun now wherever you are?
Every party you crash, you know I wish was your car
So that maybe you could be as much of a wreck as me
But instead you're the DEATH of me
I just wish you were DEAD to me
I don't care about your new man or what you did with your hair
I just hope you're happy, 'cause I know I'm scared
I don't want to lose you, and I know that's not fair
I've been trying to reach you on a DYING phone
That's still more charged than me
'Cause it's been three days
...and I don't think I've slept
'Cause I'm not enough whatever I do
I changed my favorite color for you
I should have been green, but for years I've been blue
'Cause you always made the whole spectrum about you
And I just want to know if we'll ever move past this
Does he know that your bedsheets smell like alcohol and sadness?
I guess we'll burn that bridge when we get there
We'll burn that bridge when we get there
I'm a merchant who deals in the misery of
Being unknown and having no one
And this is urgent, my heart feels like it's blistering 'cause
It's still beating for all the years you stole from
|
||||
7. |
||||
I know you think you'll get tired of me
But I'll always be the ink in your diary
Or under your skin when my lyrics break in like a needle
I'm a permanent fixture you'll never get rid of
I had that nightmare again where I smother you to DEATH
In a hospital bed, then drown in my own sweat
I'm not responsible for what goes on in my head
And certainly not in yours
It doesn't have to be this way
But go ahead and turn the lights down, baby
I never claimed to be a saint
So just keep your voice low
The Bible in my closet never offered any guidance
I'm only trying to bide time
Until we shake the pain away
And laugh about our self-destruction
It doesn't have to be this way
But go ahead and turn the lights down, baby
I never claimed to be a saint
So just keep your voice low
And we'll try to fill a void
That we otherwise would never ourselves
Avoiding every chance we get to better ourselves
Do the people we avoid
Become reasons just to keep to ourselves
Like secrets we have hidden?
So just keep your distance
Because everything about this is wrong
And it's all gonna end tonight
And it's all gonna end tonight
Everything about this is wrong
And it's all gonna end tonight
And I hope to God that it ends tonight
Do the people we avoid, avoid us too?
I guess I wished that I was your monster
I guess I've just always been your ghost.
|
Streaming and Download help
If you like Detour North, you may also like:
Bandcamp Daily your guide to the world of Bandcamp